Friday, May 18, 2007
3 Weeks away .....
What do they say?? You can break, or form, a new habit in 21 days??
Hmmmmm .... I must say that I question that saying.
I have been "jonesing" for online community contact today and it has been over 3 weeks since I last posted in SBDO. iVillage has been unaccessible for me today ... Message Board problems .... can't post ....
I guess, in a way, I should thank Wine Fairie ... (and yes ... I know you are reading .... almost daily). Today was a glorious day for Texas May. High of 79 ... 40% humidity .... sunny .... breezy .... and FRIDAY!! Instead of hanging out online with friends, I was outside almost all day. Reading on the deck ... floating in the pool .... playing with the dog ....
Still .... I miss my FP friends. I miss the community.
Okay .... one day at a time .... one friend at a time .... it's like moving .... I have to re-establish myself. Find new friends .... find a new happy place ....
See .... the thing is .... I have a really good happy place right here where I am sitting. But I want to share my happiness ... and hear of others' happiness ... and heck ... share any sadnesses I have on occassion and be willing to hug others who have their own sadnesses.
Isn't it silly that I can so whole-heartedly miss an online community of women .... many whom I have never met? Yet I do. Very Much.
Okay ... it is Friday ... and I have been to BJ's ... I didn't have tequila ... but to all my FP friends who manage to find their way here ... I miss you and ... I LOVE YOU!!
Ehehehehe .... Really .... No Tequila!! yet ......
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Lady, you have major problems, I tell you, big problems. Have you ever heard of the term computer addiction? It sounds like to me you have that, as well as a ton of even more serious psychological problems. These probably are what is causing your computer addiction. I strongly urge you to seek help from a qualified professional.
Do you not have any friends in real life? Instead of sitting in front of a computer all day long and blaming this wine fairy person for all of your problems, why don't you get out and make real life friends? I assume this is a person and not a real life fairy or a figment of your imagination? If so your problems may be even worse than I suspect.
You can't even get your story straight in one blog, for Pete's sakes, either. You are saying you should thank this strange Fairy person because you had such a wonderful day away from the computer and in the next sentence almost you are bemoaning the fact that you don't have your FP friends so that you can be on the computer.
If you don't have your FP friends, then I can assure you that you can only blame yourself. When it comes down to it, we only have ourselves to blame. It sounds like to me that it's time for you to quit blaming others for your problems and look within yourself for answers.
Why aren't you still posing on your old on-line community? If your version of things in your original post about all this imaginary life were true, I don't understand why you are not still in that on-line community. If you were right and it was only 1 or 2 or 3 people that caused you grief, would the rest of them have not stood behind you, seeing they were such great friends as you say? I'm not even certain how many people you are blaming! In some of your comments it sounds like it's just the fairy, but in others you have mentioned other people. I'd LOVE to hear the other side of the story.
You seem to be on a mission to destroy this group and especially this Fairy person. That's what I get from reading this blog, that I somehow stumbled across and regrettably read. Now I feel forced to report it as being a public attack.
If you are in such a happy place right now, why are you so miserable? That makes no sense. Either you are happy or you or not.
You keep saying you are happy then you turn around and post how unhappy you are. You did this throughout your entire blog. It's not just this entry.
If you are so eager to share your happy life, there are tons of people out in the real world that could use a friend.
Why do you think this fairy is reading this blog at all, much less on a daily basis? Has she no real life either or are you just paranoid? With your other obvious personality traits I'm guessing it's paranoia.
I work in the mental health field and from what I see you are the poster child for a mentally disturbed person. You need to seek help and seek it soon before you let this paranoia and other obvious mental problems destroy your life.
This brings me to a final question. Seeing that you are such a happy person, why do you have this compulsion to keep what looks like a personal journal and make it public? I can understand the need to write. It can be really good therapy for someone with problems such as you have. However, when one writes for this reason, they keep it private for their own use. They don't make it public to try to smear someone else or in your case, a whole on-line community of people, it appears.
Ok. I've done what I can to help you and I'm vowing to myself, for my own mental health, to not ever read this blog again. You really frustrate me lady!
Ahhhhh .... the Masked Negative Commentor strikes again ....
Coward ....
OK. I hate it when I do things such as this, but I left my browser on your blog and saw your response. I will reply this time, but it will do you no good to respond to me again, as I will "x" out when I am finished and never come back.
I have dealt with enough unstable people to know not to use my real name when I post to someone such as yourself. I also have noticed that there hasn't been a single comment on your blog that was not done anonymously. I'm guessing I'm not the only one that feels that way.
As for being negative, do you think if someone disagrees with you, they are being negative? I fear you don't understand the term. Assuming people are watching you and are after you is a lot closer to being negative. I was merely pointing out to you, what seem to be serious issues for you. I was sincerely hoping it would lead to you seeking help for yourself and your behaviors (which are negative, by the way).
I only wanted to help you, dear one. I was hoping it would open your eyes to the problems you have.
I'll answer one last question for you then I'm gone. You are wondering why it doesn't seem to be true that you've been able to get rid of your habit in 21 days. The fact of the matter is that you haven't tried to change it. From what I'm reading here, you have simply tried to break your addiction to one message board by going to another message board. That's like someone trying to quit drinking by switching from vodka to rum. If you want to break your addiction, you should avoid all message boards, IM's and chatting of any kind on the computer for that length of time.
One can only be helped when they see they need help. For your sake, I hope you see that need soon.
Goodbye and good luck to you, dear lady.
Extra BIG Coward ....
LOL Hey "Anonymous", You are really way too "invested" in this! If you really worked in the Mental Health Field, you would know not to call someone "the poster child for a mentally disturbed person". MANY psychologists and psychiatrists often tell their clients to "journal" their feelings (it's 2007 and a lot of people keep an on-line blog!). The fact that you have followed this blog, and have chosen "sides" and even kept your browser logged on to this site, again, makes me wonder WHY you are so invested in this as to get so frustrated by it. I suggest, for your "own mental health", that perhaps you find another blog to read to occupy your time. Perhaps a blog where the person just posts about the weather, or what they did that day, or maybe the economy or politics is more to your liking. I bid you peace!
Hang in there CinCin! You DO have friends and we DO love you and DO care! KK
Hey Pam, get a life. You and Goergia should be ashamed of yourselves for all the back biting and bitchiness. You drove Cin away from some thing sheenjoyed for no other reason that your jealousy and vindictiveness.
By the way, the technology built into these blogs allow blog owners to see who is posting on their site, so don't try to deny it.
I feel sorry for you for all your obviously inherent ego problems.
Wow...all this sturm and drang...and thank you to someone I will not name for letting me know when I have been personally attacked again. I see I'm being attacked by a new source, although I've hypothesized it's been you behind the "stirring the pot" all along...hasn't it Tom? Sorry you don't like me. I liked you. Couldn't figure out why you were so rude to me, that's your issue not mine. Why is it you feared my friendship with Cin? Was it cuz I asked you not to diss her everytime she went out of the room? But I will not apologize, I will always stick up for her. She is a terrific person who provides a lot to you and to your home and lifestyle and your happiness and success. Why don't you praise her to her friends when she leaves the room instead of complaining that she leaves clutter or doesn't do the cleaning, etc. etc?
First off, CinCin...good for you for finding new things in your life to give you contentment and joy. I've not felt the need to post any responses prior to today as I thought your pent up bitterness and anger would fade, but I see by Tom's post you have someone fueling your anger. Tom, shame on you for publicly blaming when you do not have the facts. Very unseemly in such a normally self righteous and moralistic man. If I was to post a response it would be with my name written all over it, not to mention my style of writing would be very hard to disguise.
But let's address some issues. This anonymous post has some things right..you do seem to want to hang on to anger and bitterness and not move forward. For that you might want to thank her or him(To anonymous...I am the evil Wine Fairie person, the great evil which has destroyed all that was happy in CinCin's life - yes, this was said with a great note of sarcasm. I have no power to control anyone's life. I can only bless them, shake my head at their continued public assaults and anger and prayer for them to find peace and contentment.) And RH, you are right, CinCin is still loved and cared for, even if she does wish to deny it.
To address some issues mentioned before which are plainly false. I never had a contract on a home prior to the one I signed the last week of April. I told a little white lie to hopefully preserve a friendship. I chose another mortgage broker, not because of mileage (although I did investigate that option and in December thought I would be going in that direction), but because Tom was condescending and patronizing in his discussions with me. He also did not do any of the follow up I requested via phone and in person. It seemed a simple thing to request a list of all the documents he would be need should I go through with pursuing a mortgage but I received nothing. This gave me the feeling that Tom didn't want to work for me. Tom may have thought he was working for me, but I didn't get anything to show he was so I pursued other venues. This was a business decision. I did not feel it was CinCin's business to know why I looked elsewhere, Tom could have asked.
Secondly, I have never hated you. I don't possess that depth of emotions in the negative manner, thank the Lord. I have been astonished at some of your very public attacks and actions. I have been hurt and angered at your public need to "be right" and blame me for all that is upsetting in your life. I have been extremely frustrated with the fact you would rather blog for all the world to see, instead of having a person to person discussion directly with me, your friend. But I chose to move away and let it go. I will always choose to move away from such abuse. And to pray for your happiness and success in all you do. I recently forwarded your Miss Math teaches Taks website to a contact in the Seattle area as I think you are a gifted and talented math tutor and teacher and your idea for teaching for the state testing is a good one and one you should succeed with. I wish you no ill will, contrary to your continuing fuming about all of this. I also have no wish to be controlled, I have no wish to be continuously named in public blogs with no hope for response. This type of insane gossip and attack is like plucking a chicken in a windstorm and then trying to put it back to the way it was before. You can't gather the feathers, and you can't reattach. All of this continued "efforts" on your part to "fix" things is just feather gathering.
I'm terribly sorry to disappoint you and Tom, but I carry no ill will. I do not wish to make you unhappy, destroy your marriage, cause you pain or keep you from success as you seem to think. I only wish you enough. Enough love so you can let go of the nagging fears which seem, from this outside viewpoint, to be driving you to anger and attack. I only wish you enough. Enough success so you have all you desire. I only wish you enough. Enough self esteem so you can learn to respect the rights of others, the rights of privacy, the respect to not publicly attack others with your own side of the coin regardless of the veracity of the statements made. I wish you enough. I wish you enough joy and happiness in life you can let your hatred and vindictiveness go. You were greatly infatuated with "The Secret" earlier this year. Surely you learned from that book or video that all this meanness, pettiness and insecurity you are putting out to the world will come back. Don't do it to yourselves. You're better than that. You're smarter than that. Accept the changes, embrace them, learn to love others for who they are even if they don't conform to what you wish. Enjoy the world and then you can receive what you deserve. Open up to the possibilities and success and comfort and happiness can be yours. Bless it and let it go, Cin...bless it and let it go.
And I will continue to bless you and occassionally I may check your blog to see if you are finding happiness. And I hope, from the deepest reaches of my heart and soul, that you do. And I hope you, Tom, become the largest mortgage man in Dallas. And Cin, I hope you franchise your tutoring and your teaching CD and one day I turn on the t.v. and see you on Oprah as a great success. Good luck and may God Bless.
And Tom, I'm sure the moderators will be please to know their privacy and security is not as promised in their statement of privacy. I have a blog on this site and can't see who posts and who visits, only the number of visits. If you've mined the site for this information, you may want to let them know how as they prevent that information from being made public to thwart hackers and interlopers. Please tell me where you find who views your blog as I'd like to find that on mine. Then I'd know when my family checks in or doesn't.
Regards,
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My Dear Wine Fairie ....
Go to http://www.sitemeter.com
You will have to sign up and then add it to your blog. You will be amazed at the information it gives you.
And it is Free.
And Legal.
Now .... I would like to make it very clear that you are NOT MY FRIEND. I did not invite you into my blog and I am now asking you to leave.
You ran me off of FP and SBDO ... you and Cat-Anonymous-Madam. I am totally off the site. This is MY SPACE and MY BLOG and you are not welcome here.
True ... only I can be in control of how I feel ... and I feel totally betrayed and hurt by you and your ongoing smear campaign against me ... and now my husband.
Leave me alone Georgia. I do not want to see you even visiting this blog. I cannot STOP you from visiting ... but I can document. And believe me, I am documenting.
Nowhere on this BLOG have I been anywhere near as mean to you as you and Catmadam have been to me.
Leave me alone.
Stay off of my BLOG.
Love and Kisses which I mean just as much as you mean your hopes and prayers for me and mine.
Cin
Cin & Tom. At one time I had great respect for you. Now I just pity you. I'll be praying for you that whatever has caused your bitter outlook on life will be lifted.
MUAH!
And to you Catmadam .... who a few posts ago had no idea who I was ... but now you had respect for my HUSBAND and I???
I also return YOUR well wishes and prayers with the same feeling with which you sent them.
And I politey ask you to stay away from this BLOG.
CinCin,
This is the Wine Fairie. You're wishes are granted. I will not return after this post. I came bearing an olive branch. I came hoping to bury the hatchet, but you only wish to bury it in my back. I hadn't realized you'd descended so far into this self created abyss of self righteousness. I still had hope for you. It is a pity CinCin, when did you turn so bitter? When did your need for drama supercede your need for love and happiness and nurturing. Good luck Cin. You'll need it. It's too bad you turn your back on people who actually care about the real you. The people who love you, warts and all. When did you decide to drive everyone who might not agree with you, but still loved the you that you are away? The you that glows. The you that shines through your beautiful complexion you have? The you that used to embrace people without judgement. The you that used to accept people without scorn?
I will continue to love and support you via the cosmos even though you wish to deny it. The only person who has "forced you" to do anything is yourself. Own it. live with it. Know that you are only trying to drive off your true friends because they only wished to stop you from your detrimental behavior. They only wished to understand and help. Continue to confuse honesty and friendship with meanness. Continue to blame others for your own unhappiness. Continue to confuse "pandering" to friendship. You will be unhappy in the long run. And sincerely, Cin, I do not wish you to be unhappy. I wish you joy. Continue to find another doc to prescribe another pill that will solve all your problems. I will not return.
I will continue to wish you well. I WILL continue to pray for your happiness and success. I will continue to love you for the you that you are and not for your actions and behaviors of late. And I will continue to pray that you will find happiness.
Document all you wish Cin. My life is good and blessed. If you are jealous, so be it. Why don't you discontinue your tirades and focus on all the lovely things you have to be grateful for?
Go with God, Cin. Go with the Higher Power. Go with Grace. Go with Peace. Go with Love. I pray you let go of your fears so you can go with contentment.
P.S. Thanks for the insight into the blog. Now I can see who is checking out mine. I appreciate the information. Thank you! May you enjoy all that life returns to you in multiple of what you have given it.
OK reality check, just read the post. Who looks hysterical.
Not Cin Cin.
The havoc at FP is and has been caused by WF and CM since the beginning. They sculk around and lurk..waiting to attack at any opportunity.
Cin and Tom are wonderful people and if you could get your face out of your rectum long enough you could tell.
BTW I have heard from many people that have checked out FP in the past that the evil duo have scared them away. I went there and returned there mostly to spend time with Cin.
You guys need a life. YOU SUCK!
La
PS If Cin is having trouble letting go, it's because she thought you were her friends.
She loved you.
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